SintimSpeaks#10 I’ve forgiven you …. but please stay away from me!!
I love you all, you guys keep me going with your beautiful, kind words thank you all and god bless you all
Right let’s start, if you’ve got me on Snapchat then you would have seen I had a really angry outburst about 2 weeks ago and loads of my readers and friends messaged me I was touched it was so lovely to see such people rooting for me. This is when I knew I needed to address this the only way I know how through blogging although I wanted to tump this girl in her throat but like I always say violence isn’t the answer.
Beware some of the people you consider your “friends” some are wolves clothed in sheep’s skin, really read the signs and the things they do around you because I completely missed them at really took this girl as my sister, we used to be on the phone for hours bussing joke, she’d even talk to my mum . she was basically famliy in my eyes , we’d go out to eat , we’d advise each other if we were going through something because that’s what friends do right!!
Little did I know this girl was ruining my name behind my back all of a sudden, mutual friend of ours started being off with me I’d call this girl to ask why she said she doesn’t know, I used to sit there and think endlessly what have I done to these people. Imagine we meet in such a holy place so I couldn’t believe it when I found out it was her in fact I cried as if you personally know me I don’t cry unless it’s something serious.
I cannot stress this enough I do not want anyone to feel sorry for me at all I just want you to read it and take something from it here’s a couple signs that I completely missed , when your friends with someone and they make a comment about something you over look it because their your friend at the time but how many times do you need to do this before you realise that there actually insulting you … “you should wear make up more often” If you personally know me I don’t wear makeup unless it’s my birthday or and special occasion , I don’t even know how to put it on I can hold my hands up that lol , so after like the 3rd time she said it I said I like my face how it is I don’t need make up to make me feel better or pretty enough for you or anyone tbh .
Sign number 2 when they call you and start talking about someone else, this means they are talking about you to someone else, yes, they are talking about you too believe it not even just that they are going back to the people and saying what you said and not what they have said to make themselves look the good one, in some cases they will have you on loudspeaker with the person they report back to this has happened to me so I know what I’m talking about. yeah, I know mad init.
Sign number 3 when you’ve spent your hard-earned money on something then they insult saying its banter… kmtttt banter where I will never ever forget this it you’ve got me on Snapchat I took a picture of some trainers I bought “Adidas tubular camouflage print” to be precise anyway I put the picture up went to do what I’m doing went to bed woke up the next morning for work. I see a Snapchat message I opened it is says “Fucking Bitch” I said “huh why?” Imagine her reply was because I like them why do you have them, then I started to notice this is not normal friends don’t insult you for not reason especially when you’ve got something they want that’s a bit off and uncalled for.
Sign number 4 this will be the last sign to look out for , as if I write everything we’ll be here for decades, so the last one is when they don’t defend you when you’re not there but come and tell you what someone has said “she said you’re really rude and annoying” and my reply was “what did you say? “I didn’t say anything because I don’t want to get involved” huh what I can’t comprehend what you just said you claim my friend and you didn’t say anything at this point everything was clear she wasn’t the friend I thought she was everything added up now I was the fool but it’s okay I learned my lesson never to be so trusting again.
I’m not going to sit there and say I’m perfect because I’m not, no one is really but I 1000% know that it’s not okay to treat anyone like this, or allow anyone to treat you like that. As soon as you clock onto these signs confront them and how it ends will determine if they are your friend or just another lesson learnt .one other thing just because there from the same country as you doesn’t mean they really like you it just a convenience.
One last thing
To all the people you’ve spread these horrible rumours about me to I’ve heard them all I will not repeat on here as it’s absolutely disgusting and i dont know how someone could make up such horrid things , I’ll just leave you to god I wish you all the success in life and everything you set to do goes on well for you but as the title says
“I’ve forgiven you, but please stay away from me”
Bible quotations I’ve based this on are:
Get rid of all bitterness, passion, and anger. No more shouting or insults, no more hateful feelings of any sort. Instead, be kind and tender-hearted to one another, and forgive one another, as God has forgiven you through Christ.
If you forgive others the wrongs they have done to you, your Father in heaven will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive others, then your Father will not forgive the wrongs you have done.
God blesses those whose hearts are pure, for they will see God.
3 So watch yourselves. “If your brother or sister sins against you, rebuke them; and if they repent, forgive them. 4 Even if they sin against you seven times in a day and seven times come back to you saying ‘I repent,’ you must forgive them.”