“Lord, I’ve been broken
Although I’m not worthy
You fixed me, I’m blinded
By your grace
You came and saved me”- Stormzy

 

Hey guys I’m going to get straight into it this week, I know its later than promised but as you can see from the title I’ve had a bit of a situation going on but honestly thanks for the support along this blogging journey of mine. As you can see above I’ve quoted the lyrics of the incredible artist Stormzy, if it wasn’t for this song being on repeat plus my beautiful real-life guardian angels I don’t know what I would have done this past Sunday. 

As you know I like to be as real as I can with my readers , where do I even start as hard as this sounds if you get a feeling about something in your relationship , don’t brush it to the side act on it because if not it will eat you up inside as it was until I acted on it … well one of my friends did and came back with receipt’s that shocked the life out of me I mean you really think you know the person you’ve chosen to accept and bring around your friends and family then in a split second it all crumbles . 

At first I did the typical thing of blame myself , maybe I was a bit too much at times , maybe it did come across as controlling but then again I thought if I don’t do these things he may think I don’t love him as much as I was showing him well trying to at least ( yes I did love him) but while talking to one of my sisters that knocked some clarity in to my  not so clear mind at the time made me realise sometimes no matter how many times you overthink the situation or try and compare yourself to the person you was cheated on with its not you it’s the person’s character and the probably will never change so don’t ever blame yourself ,now just because its happened to me I still will never think “ALL MEN ARE TRASH”  it’s just a the way some men and women are believe it or not are its sad but it’s true. There are some really great guys out there sometimes I feel we need to go through things like this appreciate the good ones  that will eventually come more

I will be the first one to say no one is perfect including myself in this relationship I could of handled things better , controlled my temper a bit more , my attitude at times was disgusting , my mood swings at times were ridiculous but there is no excuse for cheating and I or anyone going through this didn’t deservethis  and especially a cheat  that will not take accountability for their actions and then will later play the victim these are the most dangerous kind of cheats sis bro yes men get cheated on too ! if you with someone like this please get out of that situation , it’s not healthy you should know your worth and not let it be okay for anyone to treat you like this I just thank God it came out earlier than later and what makes me even more happy is that he even knew my worth and fixed up his mouth to say “I don’t deserve her , she’s too good for me, I’m a bad person” 

One more thing I have always been happy in my life no matter what life has thrown at me this person I believed was going to add to my happiness let me down but that’s okay because even now you have gone forever  I will still be always happy as I have such a strong support system and God will bless each and every one of them, I also know my worth what I deserve as everyone should and God will bless me with someone that also deserves me Amen!!   

But overall thanks for reading I hope you all learn something from it , show it to your brothers , sisters , aunties , uncles everybodyyyyyyyy lol , I’m really trying to get better with posting more regularly guys ,I will be aiming to put one out once a week also if you are a non-believer and you read and comment on my blogs this makes me even more happy because I know I’m touching you some way or another my blogs are for everybody feel free to comment believer or not . As long as you take something from it that’s all I want !! 

Bible quotations for this week 

 Luke 8:17

There is nothing hidden that won’t be revealed, and there is nothing secret that won’t become known and come to light.

John 3:20-21

Everyone who practices wickedness hates the light and does not come to the light, so that his actions may not be exposed. But whoever does what is true comes to the light, so that it may become evident that his actions have God’s approval

Proverbs 28:18

The one who lives with integrity will be helped, but one who distorts right and wrong will suddenly fall.

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21 thoughts on “SintimSpeaks#18…You’re right you don’t deserve me !!!

  1. Nobody is perfect but nobody deserves to be cheated on.
    I sorry that you have to go through this.
    I know what it feels like.
    It’s not easy but God does heal broken hearts becuase God wanted all of us to be happy.
    I appreciate you sharing this and stay strong!

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  2. It is great that you have been brave and honest in your post. Your experiance is not a reflection of anything being wrong with you.
    Often people have unhealed wounds that govern their behaviour. I hope you heal from this experiance and go onto find someone deserving of your love and that adds to your happy spirit xxx

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  3. In life we are sent people to test us, to learn fro lm and to grow with. Some lessons I. Life are awful and this is a horrible thing to go through. I’ve been cheated on so I understand. You have a great outlook! Keep your head up! Xxx

    Sophie 💙

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  4. Sometimes when things happen to us in life, we question the whys. We question ourself and often wonder if we could of done something to haves prevented a situation from. But God makes no mistakes. You did not deserve to be treated this way but girl what what meant to harm you, the Lord has turned it around for your good. Thank you for your bravery and sharing your story, keep standing on Gods words because as I read your post, I can already tell he has big plans for you.

    You are right, not all men are trash but sometimes we must experience these things so when the real deal comes along we won’t second guess. Keep up the good work and continue walking in alignment with what God has for you x

    Jenna
    https://jennasworldview.com/2018/06/29/intuition/

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    1. Amen I receive it in Jesus name , God bless you for this beautiful comment this is why I do want I do amen amen amen your comment had already made my day honestly thanks for reading Hun ❤️

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